2016 came to an end just yesterday (or today, depends how you think of it) and I was partying with my bff and some of her friends. It was a really fun night and five minutes before the clock hit midnight here, we put on our shoes and jackets and gloves 'cause it was freezing cold and we went outside to clink glasses and to shoot some fireworks ourselves.

Now, you have to know that my bff lives pretty close to downtown and every year the town she lives in puts on a huge firework show when the new year starts. We usually don't go there because it's high-key likely that you get hit by firework but you have a great sight just from her house as well.

So we started shooting our fireworks up into the air and for a few minutes, I was completely stuck with looking at just the light that we produced which was surely not bad at all but not very good either.

But then, just for one second, I turned my head around and I was awestruck by the firework that was just a few meters away from us. As the fireworks hit the sky, making it look like a thousand shooting stars were shooting down the earth, I suddenly started wondering if our life is similar to just that one single situation.

Maybe we, as humans, are too concerned with looking at the bad that happens around us, thinking this could never get any better while at the same time, we'd miss out on even greater things, too stuck in what seems the obvious.

For example, as I said in my next-to-last post, I'm a person filled with anxieties, all because of the fact that I don't want to be bad at anything.

So I can have a pretty normal or even a good day but then I say something wrong in class or someone criticizes me and suddenly all the good feelings are forgotten and I just sit there, thinking how miserable my life is. And I don't even care, if my friends are extremely nice to me that day or if I have a great conversation with someone or if I feel accepted for a second, in my head it already is a bad day and nothing could ever change that again.

So perhaps, when we're feeling sad or depressed again, sometimes we just have to take a closer look and appreciate all the good things that surround us, all the love and the kindness.

I'll try to remember that moment at midnight on the first day of January and maybe try to reconsider if it really was a bad day after all, maybe that will help me find a life of my own.

xxx Sarah