Feeling at home.

You know how people always say that when you find that person you just click with, you'll feel at home?
I always thought this was some kind of hoax as I never really had this feeling before. Not until one year ago when I met someone and I talked a few sentences with him and BAM there was this thread connecting us somehow and I felt like he didn't mind me being completely awkward most of the time, like he understands me.
We didn't start anything romantically wise but that's okay, because that feeling doesn't always have to mean that this is the right person to start a relationship with, I can also mean that you two would be great friends.

Another time when I experienced it was when I met my internet best friend this summer and even though we really understood each other skyping or writing letters and stuff, it's always something different when you see them in person so naturally, I was pretty freaking nervous.
But the second I saw her, there was this thread again, this thread connecting both of us somehow and I had one of the best days of my life. We even randomly bursted out saying the same sentences at the same time! Not to forget that we could literally read each others mind whenever something strange happened.

So when I met this guy a few months ago, I totally forgot that this exists, that it is possible to feel this way with a person. We texted back and forth for a few weeks and I felt okay with him but not 100% comfortable, I felt like he just didn't understand me that well but I thought "Hey, there's this person who for once seems slightly interested in you, so you just have to keep going, this might be your only chance to ever find someone" (silly I know, but it felt like the truth to me back then).
Then it ended and the past few weeks I wasn't really feeling that well because of it until one night - I was just getting ready to go to bed - it suddenly hit me: I never ever ever felt at home with this person. Never. So maybe it was a good thing it ended, maybe I'm now able to find the right one someday as I now do not cling to this other guy anymore.
Although I'm currently enjoying this "no love complications" time, it is nice to have this in the back of my mind.

So to everyone out there who's going through heartbreak right now: You will find someone better, someone you just have this unique connection with. Have faith in it.

Someday you'll find a life of your very own.

xxx Sarah

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