I think the most fun and interesting part about life is how you sometimes cross paths with certain people, not knowing how much they gonna change your view on the world or your feelings towards yourself. I have come across quite a few so far and I'm grateful for that each and every day. However, one of the people who's been in my life the longest so far, is Taylor Alison Swift.

To be quite honest, it's not a coincidence I decided to post about my undying love for her exactly today. In fact, she reblogged something from my tumblr blog just today and made me realize again how much I adore her as she and her music have always been there in my darkest times, a gentle reminder that everything will be okay.

It all started out when I discovered I Knew You Were Trouble in 2012. At that time, I had a huge crush on a boy who didn't even know I existed. I felt so sad and lonely and heartbroken but then I discovered RED and I felt like someone finally understood my feelings although I myself have never been in a relationship.

So when I got hurt again and again and again by this person, the only thing that was constant in my life was Taylor's music and the reassurance that I am not alone.

As you might know, I was bullied in 2014 and when Taylor released 1989, I just switched class but I was still confused and depressed, I just didn't know how to find a way to myself again and if that's even possible. Even more than that, I felt like the rumors followed me everywhere. So naturally, when I read the lines "I hope you know that who you are is who you choose to be and that whispers behind your back don't define you. You are the only one who gets to decide what you will be remembered for.", I felt like once again she has spoken right to my heart, knowing exactly what I'm going through.

That day I first became obsessed with the song Clean and I was so fascinated by the fact that someone could go through so much pain but still get out of it as a better person. Mind you, I didn't quite believe that was something I could achieve but it still made me happy.

So the months passed by, and I was feeling as miserable as always when the 1989 tour in Tokyo started and I was excitedly scrolling through my dash, looking forward to all that I would experience in June. Suddenly I read this long text quote, something that was called the Clean Speech from then on and once again, Taylor found a way to speak right to my heart while not belittling my pain but rather saying that it is possible even for me to overcome it.

I think it’s probably very possible that a lot of you have experienced a lot of rainy days that never really got brighter, or maybe you fell in love with a person or something that was bad for you and you couldn’t quit it, maybe you lost someone you never expected you would lose, maybe you lost yourself. That’s even worse. When you have bad days that just won’t let up, I just hope that you will look in the mirror and remind yourself of what you are and what you are not.
You are not your mistakes.
You are not damaged goods or money from your failed explorations.
You are not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know you.
You are a product of the lessons that you’ve learned.
You are wiser because you went through something terrible.
And you are the person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking.